It's been sooo difficult to et myself to blog since the last post. Writing is so painful I guess, but I really found the last post so beneficial and have been doing well since... feeling like I'm beginning to rise above the fog a bit.
I'm off to school camp in Adelaide for a few days with kids from Years 4 - 7 (ages 8 - 13 years)... should be a blast with the great teachers and parents we are taking with us! It will be cold but good.
Anyway... I'll make a reall effort to post something more during the weekend...
Bye for now...
Julie
About Me
- Julie
- I am mother of 4 wonderful kids who all live in Adelaide (1.5 hours away) now; 3 sons 28, 27 and 19 and a daughter 22. Many weekends are spent hanging out with my children. I continue to live Moonta and work in Kadina, which means a pleasant 15 minute commute there and back each day. This year I teach a small class of students with disabilities and challenging behaviours. I support them to succeed in the school setting. I am still studying for my Diploma in Personal Counselling when I can find the time! I love spending time outside enjoying the natural environment, the more unspoiled by human interaction the better.
Mutley at work
waiting for the revered tennis ball
providing friendship
Mutley at rest, sort of!
have to rest... have to rest...
2 comments:
Well Julie I totally understand the fog point of perspective. In fact, I can't ever get the fog to clear. I am just fooling everyone around me into thinking that I am OK most of the time. You should not be to hard on yourself regarding the situation with your children. I too was molested for many years as a child by a member of mystepfathers family often while my mother was in the house. My mother was a very intelligent woman and very protective. I didn't tell her about it until I was in my late twenty's. Looking back I wish I never had because it made her question herself and she shouldn't have because she did a good job as a mother. The fault didn't lie with her. As an adult I think it made me a better parent. I would have done anything to protect my son and I knew very clearly that I wanted him to have the best and happiest childhood possible. I don't want to say too much about the situation but I want to make clear to you that it was not you, the blame lies elsewhere. I think blogging is a good way to release so much. I hope maybe I could help you too.
I was an only child and my parents "pride and joy"... but was also found in this same situation by an older male cousin. I promise you... it was not your fault. My parents didn't know or they would've never let me be in that situation. I was too scared to tell... but luckily my other cousin was not... so the lude acts stopped. I believe also that I am a better parent because of this. I hope to protect my children at ever angle... but also know that danger can come around every corner. But I urge you to believe that it was NOT your fault... Please release yourself from the guilt.
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